I Feel Sick in my Stomach

You know those moments where you yell out and scream stuff on the internet space... And you're confident that only a few people actually only read that sort of stuff. You know, using the internet as a space for you to let go and yell out your frustrations... Akin to sort of screaming out loud in public. Then you find out that there are some important people who saw those screams of anger and they let you know that they saw it.

How very awkward. Well, I know now how popular people feel when they post an ill advised tweet or facebook post. Even if it isn't that bad, it can be largely misconstrued. Even then, so many people see it and they get flak for it. For me, I just think that I'm just some random guy on the internet just like a majority of people here. So whatever crap I have to say, whether good or bad, won't be analyzed. So I go ahead and say stuff when I get emotional, not expecting it to bite me in the ass later on.

Right now, I just... Wanna disappear. No, not die or anything like that. But I just feel so sick to my stomach that I just wanna be away from everything right now. From here on out, I can't say all the negative thoughts I have out loud on this internet space anymore. It really just comes back to bite me. It reminds me of how I tend to write in secret and use secret aliases. It just makes me want to do that even more; to not put out my real name out there. Ugh.